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QUESTIONS STOLEN FROM TUMBLR
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1. Who’s your favourite fictional character?
Depends on my day...Most of the time, I would say John Watson, but given a mood change, it could be Tommy Meryln or Beatrice from Much Ado About Nothing
2. Your opinion on misgendering?
It tends to piss me off...especially since it happens to me a lot...I mean, I understand I have VERY short hair, but with the boobs I have, how can you mistake me for anything other than a female???
3. What are 5 things you can’t live without?
Computer, internet, air, water, rock & roll
4. Favourite comic book character?
Wolverine
5. Old fashioned reading (books etc) or technology (online reading etc)?
Prefer books, but technology is much more convenient most times, sadly.6. Do you like to dance?
Love it!
7. Do you agree with “practice makes perfect IF you have the talent”?
Practice never makes perfect...but it makes it pretty damn close!
8. Favourite thing to do that no one else knows?
Now why would I say? If I said, then everyone would know!
9. Do you like horror?
A lot more than I used to!
10. Best memory?
Watching my daughter sing "Maybe" on stage for the very first time. I had never been so proud in my life.11. What is your favourite thing to do?
Sitting in the sun and listening to nature live and breathe around me while I write on a notepad with a pen (there is no technology when it's writing time there!)Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
So...yeah...
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So I'm sitting here at work, trying to look busy...I'm one week away from my 3 year anniversary with the company and I still want to quit. But this week, one week from my anniversary and a little over 10 days from graduation for the Midshipmen seems relatively quiet...I know I probably shouldn't have said that...I know that tomorrow or the next day will probably be hellish and go nuts, but today has been (other than the phones ringing off the hook), relatively sane.
They've changed a couple of policies to allow paperwork to be a bit easier, which makes things move along more quickly. And for once, everyone is actually here and at their own desks doing their own work...It's amazing how when I'm doing my own work I actually am caught up and practically waiting for other people to finish their portion of things in order for me to do my stuff...and none of it pressing enough for me to stress over...novel concept all the way around...
Mother's Day was boring...no call or text from the child...but no big. She knows that I don't care. Mother's Day is just another Hallmark Holiday. My kid tells me every time she talks to me that she loves me...I don't need a card or a phone call on a special day to be reminded, like apparently some do. I worked in my garden, watched some tv, flirted online with some cute guys and just generally chilled out. Didn't write...again...like I should be...And that's another whole story...
I want to be writing my stories. I want to be putting the stuff in my head onto paper...or into the computer or something...but I'm not...I keep finding/making/having excuses to not just sit and write...most of them good ones, I swear...like I'm working on the physical me...I spend an hour working out or time in my garden or running errands for the house or getting a massage or spending with friends or going to a concert. Sometimes it's just silly like I'm tired or I want to veg...or I want to watch tv or I get distracted by the iPad or something on the internet (like a good story on AO3 or dA)...but it all comes down to the fact that I keep making excuses not to sequester myself and write...
And it doesn't help the DocWatson doesn't want to play any more...Perhaps it is time to find a new muse...again...ugh! I hate having to find new muses...they're so ellusive...
Anyway...I'm misbehaving at work...time to pretend I want to be here for another 45 minutes...
They've changed a couple of policies to allow paperwork to be a bit easier, which makes things move along more quickly. And for once, everyone is actually here and at their own desks doing their own work...It's amazing how when I'm doing my own work I actually am caught up and practically waiting for other people to finish their portion of things in order for me to do my stuff...and none of it pressing enough for me to stress over...novel concept all the way around...
Mother's Day was boring...no call or text from the child...but no big. She knows that I don't care. Mother's Day is just another Hallmark Holiday. My kid tells me every time she talks to me that she loves me...I don't need a card or a phone call on a special day to be reminded, like apparently some do. I worked in my garden, watched some tv, flirted online with some cute guys and just generally chilled out. Didn't write...again...like I should be...And that's another whole story...
I want to be writing my stories. I want to be putting the stuff in my head onto paper...or into the computer or something...but I'm not...I keep finding/making/having excuses to not just sit and write...most of them good ones, I swear...like I'm working on the physical me...I spend an hour working out or time in my garden or running errands for the house or getting a massage or spending with friends or going to a concert. Sometimes it's just silly like I'm tired or I want to veg...or I want to watch tv or I get distracted by the iPad or something on the internet (like a good story on AO3 or dA)...but it all comes down to the fact that I keep making excuses not to sequester myself and write...
And it doesn't help the DocWatson doesn't want to play any more...Perhaps it is time to find a new muse...again...ugh! I hate having to find new muses...they're so ellusive...
Anyway...I'm misbehaving at work...time to pretend I want to be here for another 45 minutes...
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Today is/was International Singles Awareness Day! It is/was the day set aside to make all paired humans aware that while they may think they have it good being tied to one individual, it is those of us who are single and FREE that have the freedom to choose daily to lie next to another person or kick them out of bed for eating crackers who have it right!
I truly believe this as one who single, though not always by choice. As one who has not had a "significant other" in over eight years, I choose most of the time to be free. I choose to not have to have one person in my bed each night and I choose to not have to center my life around one person and their choices for my life.
Am I lonely? At times. Am I alone? Never. My mind keeps me busy. My mind palace is full of lovers (one in particular) and entertainments that thrill me more than any one man (or ten) ever could...
As for the being single thing...I have contented myself with understanding that I am to forever be single the rest of my life. I was put on this planet this go-round for one reason - to bring my absolutely perfect daughter into being. That is it. I have no other purpose. That is not to say my life is over; just that the main reason the universe saw fit to put me on this planet during this lifetime was to make sure SHE came into existence this lifetime...I know not why and I know not what for, but that is why...anything else I do...anything else I accomplish this lifetime, including any relationships I garner, are just gravy...
I keep having people pushing me to plan for my retirement. I keep having people pressing me to plan for my future. It's probably extremely depressing, but I keep asking them "Why?" and they can't give me a good reason...things like, "you'll need the extra income" or "think about your future" are so trite to me. They all think I'm going to live until I'm 80...I can't see myself living past 60, honestly...and that's not to be morbid, it's just honest...
And either way, I've lived on nearly nothing for so long, why worry? I am not a Christian...anyone who knows me, knows this...but one of the things I pulled from my days growing up in a Christian upbringing is Matthew 6:26" "Behold the birds of the heaven that they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; and your heavenly Father feeds them. Are not ye of much more value then they?" If I'm supposed to have it, it shows up. If I require it, the universe will provide...always has...always will...
I guess, in the long run, that goes for companionship as well...if I'm meant to have a man in my life, the universe will provide him for me...Right now, he's in the guise of my gay roommates...does well for companionship...the rest...not so much...I guess when I need the rest, it'll happen...'til then...I'll stay single...
So, long story short for my single, young friends out there...don't stress about being single...embrace it! The universe will provide the companionship you need when you need it...Be happy and be content and learn who you are without someone else around to define you...once you know who YOU are, the universe will allow your circles to expand exponentially!
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POSSIBLE SPOILERS, SO BEWARE!!!
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So I just watched the end of the 3 series of Sherlock. I'm going to go on a rant because some people didn't like, but I loved...I'm going to TRY not to spoil, but there are simply no promises when one rants...
So, the lines...some GREAT lines...John yelling at Mary because he is frustrated that he hasn't a) seen Sherlock for a month (A MONTH) and b) has gotten bored..."Imagine me saying that without shouting..." Delicious! Giggled for a full five minutes!
"I'm a doctor, I know how to sprain people." When you see the scene that brings this line on...OMG, I'm just sayin...BAMF John lives!
The whole Sherlock and a girl thing had me going for a bit and then...finding out about MARY??? UGH! And Sherlock finding out about Mary....Argh! And John finding out about Mary? GAH! And Mary finding out about John finding out about Mary??? OI! Feelz...many many many feelz....
I do agree that there was so much more that MoffTiss could have done...but I honestly loved the dynamic of Mum and Da...and Bill...lolz...and the scene with the brother and the cigarettes....priceless! As good as Sign of Three? Absolutely not...Honestly, much better, tighter writing, that...but it's such a wonderful setup for the next series...
More than a little slightly disappointed at the handshake between John and Sherlock...more than just a little, at that...I mean, really...GAH...but...Moriarty??? and Mary??? and...John...wow, John...his sadness at Sherlock's choice...I wanted to cry for him...
Ok...so...not as much if a rant as this could have been, but I'm tired...mentally and emotionally exhausted from both Sherlock and my life, so I'm going to hit the hay and maybe say more tomorrow...Night all!
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Why why why do I do this to myself???
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